well today i was watchin tv.n news flash!

there was a terrorist attack in india.it was horrible,it was saddening,it was just so..so heart wrecking.even tat those 100+ victims were nt related 2 me,bt still they are souls.some were innocent souls.they never knew wat was about 2 come.it came like a tsunami and swept all their lives away.imagine wat this situation has put the victims families through.today in this world,someone has lost somebody that were their world and meant alot.i pray n hope this will never happen.n this current situation will end,in a peaceful way.i cant do anything more but just pray and hope.well i hope those victims are in a better place.and i also wish tat all their pain is washed off.

an eye for an eye makes the world blind.

-mahatma gandhi-


well i hope one fine day,peace will fall on earth and everyone can live in peace,happiness,and feel secure.i pray that,that day will come soon..really soon.
speaking frankly the word PEACE,can bring loads and heaps of positive diffrence to the world,
politics, society and family affairs.
well like i said all i can do is pray and hope.
and for now i will just close my eyes imagine the world as a peaceful place.

yesterday i watched this movie,in tv3.it was starred by esha deol,aftab,n amisha.the titleof d movie was ankahee.it was a very different movie.its not so new n not so old.trust me it was worth watching.it was touching,sentimental,n realistic.i feel tat this movie shud be watched by both men and women.this movie is bout cheatings and affairs.aftab is a doc n he has a patient who happens to be a beauty queen,esha.she gets admitted for a suicide attempt.she is a little physco.aftab,dr shekar has a beautiful wife amisha, nadhitaa and a 5 year old daughter,sheena.he sorrta falls for esha.esha is all over shekar.slowly shekar slips away frm his family into tat homebreaker's arms.
wen the news comes out in the paper bout shekars n esha's relationship,amisha didnt yell at him she just asked him wat esha had tat she didnt hav.tat part was so touching.n d saddest part was wen he yelled at amisha telling her tat their marriage was his biggest mistake.their kid became sick n dropped in skewl.aftab moved out n stayed with esha.esha always doubt him n suspects his every move.she even made him divorce his wife.the divorce took place.one night sheena came 2 her mom,amisha and gave her a card made by her.n she said'mama i luv u, n i just wanted 2 let u know tat even if papa doesnt love u anymore i still and will always luv u...'
tat was so sweet of tat kid.so sentimental so touching.finally one day tat phsycopath,esha shoots herselfs n dies.shekar was left alone.he died after 16 wen his daughter read his diary aka this story.
i wonder wether this type of situations do happen.if it does i hope and pray it doesnt.n if doesnt i hope it will never exist.but sadly in some households it does.i pray tat the victims of this situation has the strength to overcome it.

Today ma sis she came on9 via skype.d whole family was in d computer room.we were crapping n doing stupid jokes.i loved to joke around wif ma sis n ma fam.so ma mum was talking to her.n i waited patiently.....
then finally ma mum handed the headphones 2 me.yes finally!!
i get to speak to ma swenena sister(its pig in russian).so she asked me bout a few guys,tat i once told was gud looking n hot n all d common guy description tat
fun hormonal girls use..
so yea..
i told bout tis n tat n bla bla
all d common sister talks ...
then it striked me

WHAT TYPE OF GUY I WUD WANT



well speaking honestly
i have gt no idea
besides i m just too....
i repeat tooo
young 2 hav an image of my mr perfect.
i feel tat its just not the time yet.yes i hav said tat a few guys i have seen is gud lookin n etc etc
but hey i was just commenting.
i m just too young n i m nt matured yet.
besides once i grow up n start ma career i will be meeting loads of people
n whoosh!!!
an ocean of dudes will be there
so why hurry rite?
neways i guess when i see tat person in d future,like in another 7 to 10 years,i will know he's the one.

hw will ma future be?

today morning when i was in the shower having a relaxin time with the hot bath though the weather wasnt cold,suddenly a thought striked my mind.i started thinking bout my future.'hw will i be wen i m out of high school','wat will i do',where will i go','will i do well in ma spm' n yada yadaaa.....
actually speaking frankly,i actually feel insecure bout ma future.till today i actually don't know wat i want 2 do.in wat field should i persue ma higher education.the worst part is i don't even have a rough idea of wat i like.yea i do luv bio,d anatomy,life cycle n etc etc. me feeling so lost....
a lost soul..
but will i enjoy wat i think i will enjoy.thats the main problem that gives me nightmares.
i know that its too much 2 think bout this cz i havent even sat for ma SPM.but time its seems long but 'poof'! its gone.i m jz so worried.garhhh!!!


Lost....

i see a girl,
she looks familliar,
I look at her,
she stares back at me,
i look into her eyes,
i look deep into them,
her eyes seems to speak to me,
i see the hurricane in her mind,
i see what she sees,
i feel what she feels,
she feels insecure,
she's curious,
she's afraid,
she's not prepared,
she tries hard,
but....
she cant seem to get rid of it,
the hurricane is becoming worst,
she cries,
she screams for help,
she's drowning in the storm,
she knew how to swim,
but she cant swim,
she's falls apart,
she drowns,
she tries to breathe,
she cant breathe,
she sinks,
she stops breathing,
her compelling eyes shut close,
sudenlly she awakens,
she's somewhere,
but where?
its dark,
theres no sight of light,
she tries to find a way out,
but she's just lost...
she feels weak,
she wonders about her future,
will she have one,
what will it be,
i look at the mirror,
standing there,
i realised,
i am lost.

Today is a day that i will neva 4get.i got up as usual 4 school.i was already in ma car.suddenly i felt like throwing up n ma stomach ached.i told ma mum.she sighed n turned back.since it was 7 already ma mum said neva mind no need 2 go 2 skewl.so i stayed at home.i called veno in d evening she told me tat we had 2 do our moral folio n hand it in tmrw.i was like, aiyuh!!!!.
dad took us out 4 dinner at oliverz cafe.food was good.

Rite nw i m sortta emoing.i suppose becoz sm1 i really love and care is going 2 endure a pain that is excruciating,and also going thru a tough time. This is for that darlingest person in ma life....

when she broke the news to me,
i was shattered but she was more shattered,
she was torn apart,
so was i,
when i saw tears rolling down her cheeks,
my heart was crying out of pain,
it was my 1st,
i had never seen tears in her eyes,
she was always strong,
it was my 1st,
to see her so ripped apart,
she was no longer the same person,
she dwelled herself in sadness,
she cried while being entertained,
she cried when she ate,
she cried in her sleeps,
she cried in her dreams,
she cried in her heart,
the core of her heart seemed so powerless,
i became weaker with every tear she shed,
but i knew i had to be strong,
nt jz for me bt for her,
i wonder why was god being so cruel 2 her,
but then he does everything for a reason,
if he gives her pain i m sure he will give her strength,
with the flow of time she is gaining her spirit,
i hope she knows that we are with her in this war,
my dear, my perspective on u will never change,
u will always b the same uber cool,loving and strong person
i pray that she will be fine,
i pray that she will pass in this test,
i know that she will,
after all she is a strong rose,
that never losses its smell and beauty,
I LOVE U
MY DEAREST JEWEL,
.