hw will ma future be?

today morning when i was in the shower having a relaxin time with the hot bath though the weather wasnt cold,suddenly a thought striked my mind.i started thinking bout my future.'hw will i be wen i m out of high school','wat will i do',where will i go','will i do well in ma spm' n yada yadaaa.....
actually speaking frankly,i actually feel insecure bout ma future.till today i actually don't know wat i want 2 do.in wat field should i persue ma higher education.the worst part is i don't even have a rough idea of wat i like.yea i do luv bio,d anatomy,life cycle n etc etc. me feeling so lost....
a lost soul..
but will i enjoy wat i think i will enjoy.thats the main problem that gives me nightmares.
i know that its too much 2 think bout this cz i havent even sat for ma SPM.but time its seems long but 'poof'! its gone.i m jz so worried.garhhh!!!


Lost....

i see a girl,
she looks familliar,
I look at her,
she stares back at me,
i look into her eyes,
i look deep into them,
her eyes seems to speak to me,
i see the hurricane in her mind,
i see what she sees,
i feel what she feels,
she feels insecure,
she's curious,
she's afraid,
she's not prepared,
she tries hard,
but....
she cant seem to get rid of it,
the hurricane is becoming worst,
she cries,
she screams for help,
she's drowning in the storm,
she knew how to swim,
but she cant swim,
she's falls apart,
she drowns,
she tries to breathe,
she cant breathe,
she sinks,
she stops breathing,
her compelling eyes shut close,
sudenlly she awakens,
she's somewhere,
but where?
its dark,
theres no sight of light,
she tries to find a way out,
but she's just lost...
she feels weak,
she wonders about her future,
will she have one,
what will it be,
i look at the mirror,
standing there,
i realised,
i am lost.