Saturday, January 30, 2010

heesh...

forgive and forget....
its easy to say
but hard to live it
wen i thought i forgot...
i realise i haven't wen i have blur visions of it...
but one things for sure
i have not forgiven...
it might take some time or perhaps
never....
sigh
dissapointment is worst then regret...

Friday, January 29, 2010

is the sky really the limit?
no...
the only limit is our soul
ourself

Thursday, January 28, 2010

U have no idea how perfect u made me feel
:)

=D

oooh my baby!!
she is cmin back!
finally
i missed you so much
nw my holidays will seem more meaningful!
love u so much!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

:D

In the end is the small things that we remember,
little imperfections which seems perfect for us,
after all little things do matter
and the smallest things in life is mostly remembered and cherised
:)
flowers taken only weeds left....


Monday, January 25, 2010

dreams

I miss school so much i m starting to have dreams of it
i had such a sweet dream last nite
all the 5 lilians will become std 1 kids and will be studying in marian convent
LOL
we were all small kids in tat uniform
neways dreams are always meant to be weird...

Saturday, January 23, 2010

.

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean. Tears from the depth of some divine despair Rise in the heart and gather to the eyes, In looking on the happy autumn-fields, And thinking of the days that are no more.

i REALLY MISS SCHOOL!





Wednesday, January 20, 2010


sometimes we have to think about ourselves too
but does tat makes us selfish?




UNFAIR!

wen i learned to accept the destiny tat i hated
getting used to the destiny.... tat i didnt want
thinking its ok to give in and sacrifice
i slowly started to learn to smile again
but suddenly
wen i found out the truth bout it...
how nastily it lied to me
how it lied to the one who brought him in to this world
wen i feel so deepressed and down to learn bout the truth tat hurts me so much
how wud they feel
i cnt even tell them
i cnt hurt them...
they trusted him....
if i was to tell them they will rip apart
i cnt aford to see them saddened
again by it
its so unfair
i m crashed burned broken and dying
why must i give in for some1 like it
WHY?!
why does god always do this to me
i deserve so much more
i wasnt the selfish one all this while
i wasnt the dissapointment
i didnt deserve tat hit
IT WAS HIM!
i will never forget this
all i wanted was to be happy b4 i leave home
but i cnt even breathe
dont i deserve a pinch of happiness
where must i go to beg for happiness?
i never felt this lonesome at all
the person tat i always turn to
is the person i m trying to protect
from the regret,dissapointment....
if my future crumbles against my dreams
i will never forgive all those who caused it...
i might even end everything
i m at the breaking point
i wonder if it evens feels bad for lying
feels bad for cheating....
it disgusts me...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

:D

ppl like u
have many secrets untold unsaid
it takes a strong heart to carry all tat weight
but u do drop it out
to some1
but u dont release everything
but
and
a willful person remains
with some burden u still manage to draw a smile
tat seems to be wat u have for the reality
but otherwise
it may be hidden

the sound of the soul....

Yesterday's goals, dim memories.
Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears.
Painful scars borne,
Futures crumble when doubt appears.

No brightly lit hope envisioned,
When following after harsh words.
Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned.
Swooned by appeal when numbness lured.

Apologies made, never bought.
Price paid turned out far too costly.
Though never known what would be wrought
Must walk into the night softly.

One wish, only to be released.
Granted now receive this token.
Words written in rhyme, dreams deceased.
When promises made . . . .were broken.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

sigh....

disturbed...
i really need to talk to someone....
=(