heesh...

forgive and forget....

its easy to say

but hard to live it

wen i thought i forgot...

i realise i haven't wen i have blur visions of it...

but one things for sure

i have not forgiven...

it might take some time or perhaps

never....

sigh

dissapointment is worst then regret...

is the sky really the limit?

no...

the only limit is our soul

ourself

U have no idea how perfect u made me feel

:)

=D

oooh my baby!!

she is cmin back!

finally

i missed you so much

nw my holidays will seem more meaningful!

love u so much!

:D

In the end is the small things that we remember,

little imperfections which seems perfect for us,

after all little things do matter

and the smallest things in life is mostly remembered and cherised

:)

flowers taken only weeds left....

dreams

I miss school so much i m starting to have dreams of it

i had such a sweet dream last nite

all the 5 lilians will become std 1 kids and will be studying in marian convent

LOL

we were all small kids in tat uniform

neways dreams are always meant to be weird...

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Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean. Tears from the depth of some divine despair Rise in the heart and gather to the eyes, In looking on the happy autumn-fields, And thinking of the days that are no more.

i REALLY MISS SCHOOL!

sometimes we have to think about ourselves too

but does tat makes us selfish?

UNFAIR!

wen i learned to accept the destiny tat i hated

getting used to the destiny.... tat i didnt want

thinking its ok to give in and sacrifice

i slowly started to learn to smile again

but suddenly

wen i found out the truth bout it...

how nastily it lied to me

how it lied to the one who brought him in to this world

wen i feel so deepressed and down to learn bout the truth tat hurts me so much

how wud they feel

i cnt even tell them

i cnt hurt them...

they trusted him....

if i was to tell them they will rip apart

i cnt aford to see them saddened

again by it

its so unfair

i m crashed burned broken and dying

why must i give in for some1 like it

WHY?!

why does god always do this to me

i deserve so much more

i wasnt the selfish one all this while

i wasnt the dissapointment

i didnt deserve tat hit

IT WAS HIM!

i will never forget this

all i wanted was to be happy b4 i leave home

but i cnt even breathe

dont i deserve a pinch of happiness

where must i go to beg for happiness?

i never felt this lonesome at all

the person tat i always turn to

is the person i m trying to protect

from the regret,dissapointment....

if my future crumbles against my dreams

i will never forgive all those who caused it...

i might even end everything

i m at the breaking point

i wonder if it evens feels bad for lying

feels bad for cheating....

it disgusts me...

:D

ppl like u

have many secrets untold unsaid

it takes a strong heart to carry all tat weight

but u do drop it out

to some1

but u dont release everything

but

and

a willful person remains

with some burden u still manage to draw a smile

tat seems to be wat u have for the reality

but otherwise

it may be hidden

the sound of the soul....

Yesterday's goals, dim memories.
Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears.
Painful scars borne,
Futures crumble when doubt appears.

No brightly lit hope envisioned,
When following after harsh words.
Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned.
Swooned by appeal when numbness lured.

Apologies made, never bought.
Price paid turned out far too costly.
Though never known what would be wrought
Must walk into the night softly.

One wish, only to be released.
Granted now receive this token.
Words written in rhyme, dreams deceased.
When promises made . . . .were broken.

sigh....

disturbed...
i really need to talk to someone....
=(