happy new year!

goodbye 2008!hello 2009!

Happy New Year!
well again a new year is born.this year is really important to me.i hav loads to do 2 make 2009 meaningful,not just to me but to my family.its a big year.i will be sitting for my SPM like 10 months from nw.kinda nervous.
well 2008 has gone by so fast.it was just has if i joined form 4 yesterday and joking around with ma buds and burning the midnite oil.2008 was a gr8 year.2008 offered me loads of sweet memories.well there were some sour and bitter ones too.but hey...forget the bad remember the good.i learnt alot from 2008.
2008 end year holidays was actually very very memorable.i spent it differently.i didn't go out of malaysia.instead i spent it with my cousins.the taiping trip was really gr8.i got the chance to really know my cousins in person.i had my first motorcycle ride.WOW!it was AWESOME! plus free fringe blow drying service.usually people think tat taiping is so slow moving and is far away from fashion.well NO!it's not.they have taiping sentral,tesco,the store,giant and jusco is coming up.and their tesco is way better than the one in ipoh.
well yesterday was new year eve.we had a bbq party at my home.my uncle and his family came.but my aunt joined us at 12.30am today cz she just got back frm australia.mum and pa's frens came.it was nice.my bro was the bbq boy.we had lamb shoulders,chicken wings and varities of sausages.omg i think i grew fat overnight!i lost tat 1 kg with so much of effort and nw its gone...'POOF'.nevermind i will lose it wen school reopens.it usually does.man!i can't wait for school to open.see the buds and chat away.
well 2009 i hope u offer me something positive and good.can't wait to see wat 2009 is all about.
Here I Come 2009!
be prepared!

cousins!

well tmmrw i will be going to taiping with ma cousin,shalu to our uncle's place there.we planned to spend some time with our cousins from taiping.it was all shalu's idea.its a gr8 plan.i haven't even packed yet.well b getting on tat soon.ma mum told me tat she's gonna miss me.and i told her i would be calling her.so can't wait to go and c them.well first i betta get all my work done b4 i leave.at least ma mind will be in peace.well today evening shalu will be cmin and we will go cycling.finally ma bike can be used,thx to ma uncle.well i betta get packing.will b back on xmas!

holidays!

i just got back from camerons a few days back.me n my mum went 2 ch last wed as my aunt frm ch came down.so we planned to spend some time getting some proper rest and it was a perfect escape for me away frm d smoky air and getting some time for myself.we stayed in my aunts place for a week.ma bro and dad joined us on saturday.well it was quite a nice holiday.it was freaking cold.
19 to 20 deg during the day and 16 to 18 deg at night.and it rains!ma legs were shaking.
and the toilet became my favourite spot.....hmmm...haha.seriously.
on d second day of ma stay in ch,it was a sorrta light festival celebrated by all indian community all over the world.it is known as 'kartigaai'.on this day we light up oil lamps and pray.as ch is a small place,small events are celebrated grand and huge.right in front of my aunts house there the temple where kartigaai is celebrated.so we gt dressed up and walked there.its not even 500m.i act was nt in d mood.felt sleepy cz it was freezing.actually i felt lazy.i just wore a plain suit and my loop earings.and off we went.when we reached d temple all d eyes were on me and my mum.i was like,ok... tats weird.i thought sumtin was wrong with me.then my mum told me that we were new so they were wondering who we were.as i hav never went to a temple for kartigaai.i usually pray at home.so this was ma first time experience celeberating it in temple.they tied a huge stack of like hay and coconut leaf and d pelepah.and they prayed and then they set the stack on fire.it was a huge fire.and the winds were really strong.the fire was like roaring.seriously roaring.finally i understand why people say that.it was awesome.there were sparks flying everywhere.a girls hair almost caught fire.that was freaky.well i experienced tat once too.scary!
it was so warm and nice.i didnt feel cold.then after that we prayed, and ate.i tell u i hav no idea but the temple food is always so tasty.ok..ok maybe because i was hungry.bt it was g8!then ma mum and aunt were like a few steps away from me talking with some one,relative i suppose.suddenly this lady came over to me held ma arms and asked me 'who's child are you'
in tamil.i was like..'ermm sashi and mr venugopal naidu'.she was like 'oh venu's girl isit'.then my mum came and again..
haizh..
neways saw a arabian dude.omg so freaking cute!
later d nex day we just stayed home.and d nex and d nex.
helped ma aunt vacumming.cz in ch d floors are all carpetted.it was fun.at least better than sweeping.haha..
ma aunt is an awesome cook.she cooks well.and d vegetables i eat there totaly taste different.it tastes fresh.it was so tasty.ma aunt gets all d food stuff fresh from d market.she kept feeding me and my mum.i ate like a pig!omg.when i got home i started working out.went for walks with ma cousin shalu.she stays just 2 rows away from my house.its nice.d only chance i have to explore my neighbourhood.nowdays no one can go for a walk alone.sigh..
i really miss those days when i could go cyclying to venosha's house right at the back row of ma house.neways she has left for a new home in d far... far... away.. kelebang jaya.
ma cousin shalu is leaving tommorow for kl.there's a camp organised by sai baba centre.hope she has fun and a safe journey.can't wait for her to be back on monday.

twilight
a movie that was simply entertaining
and
worth d ticket money.

twilight starred by robert pattinson and kristen stewart was nice not too bad.but nt all the scenes from the book was in d movie.tats one of the movies minus points.besides that it was entertaining.jasper is kinda funny.his expressions was really funny.as he is the new'vegetarian'.the other characters were nt too bad.
one thing is for sure,i really enjoyed d movie with esther and venosha.they were gr8 company.too bad sha,krity,bels and li tng couldn't make it.newayz i plan to watch it again.lol.

if u haven't watched this movie yet...
go grab a ticket and watch this movie!

well today i was watchin tv.n news flash!

there was a terrorist attack in india.it was horrible,it was saddening,it was just so..so heart wrecking.even tat those 100+ victims were nt related 2 me,bt still they are souls.some were innocent souls.they never knew wat was about 2 come.it came like a tsunami and swept all their lives away.imagine wat this situation has put the victims families through.today in this world,someone has lost somebody that were their world and meant alot.i pray n hope this will never happen.n this current situation will end,in a peaceful way.i cant do anything more but just pray and hope.well i hope those victims are in a better place.and i also wish tat all their pain is washed off.

an eye for an eye makes the world blind.

-mahatma gandhi-


well i hope one fine day,peace will fall on earth and everyone can live in peace,happiness,and feel secure.i pray that,that day will come soon..really soon.
speaking frankly the word PEACE,can bring loads and heaps of positive diffrence to the world,
politics, society and family affairs.
well like i said all i can do is pray and hope.
and for now i will just close my eyes imagine the world as a peaceful place.

yesterday i watched this movie,in tv3.it was starred by esha deol,aftab,n amisha.the titleof d movie was ankahee.it was a very different movie.its not so new n not so old.trust me it was worth watching.it was touching,sentimental,n realistic.i feel tat this movie shud be watched by both men and women.this movie is bout cheatings and affairs.aftab is a doc n he has a patient who happens to be a beauty queen,esha.she gets admitted for a suicide attempt.she is a little physco.aftab,dr shekar has a beautiful wife amisha, nadhitaa and a 5 year old daughter,sheena.he sorrta falls for esha.esha is all over shekar.slowly shekar slips away frm his family into tat homebreaker's arms.
wen the news comes out in the paper bout shekars n esha's relationship,amisha didnt yell at him she just asked him wat esha had tat she didnt hav.tat part was so touching.n d saddest part was wen he yelled at amisha telling her tat their marriage was his biggest mistake.their kid became sick n dropped in skewl.aftab moved out n stayed with esha.esha always doubt him n suspects his every move.she even made him divorce his wife.the divorce took place.one night sheena came 2 her mom,amisha and gave her a card made by her.n she said'mama i luv u, n i just wanted 2 let u know tat even if papa doesnt love u anymore i still and will always luv u...'
tat was so sweet of tat kid.so sentimental so touching.finally one day tat phsycopath,esha shoots herselfs n dies.shekar was left alone.he died after 16 wen his daughter read his diary aka this story.
i wonder wether this type of situations do happen.if it does i hope and pray it doesnt.n if doesnt i hope it will never exist.but sadly in some households it does.i pray tat the victims of this situation has the strength to overcome it.

Today ma sis she came on9 via skype.d whole family was in d computer room.we were crapping n doing stupid jokes.i loved to joke around wif ma sis n ma fam.so ma mum was talking to her.n i waited patiently.....
then finally ma mum handed the headphones 2 me.yes finally!!
i get to speak to ma swenena sister(its pig in russian).so she asked me bout a few guys,tat i once told was gud looking n hot n all d common guy description tat
fun hormonal girls use..
so yea..
i told bout tis n tat n bla bla
all d common sister talks ...
then it striked me

WHAT TYPE OF GUY I WUD WANT



well speaking honestly
i have gt no idea
besides i m just too....
i repeat tooo
young 2 hav an image of my mr perfect.
i feel tat its just not the time yet.yes i hav said tat a few guys i have seen is gud lookin n etc etc
but hey i was just commenting.
i m just too young n i m nt matured yet.
besides once i grow up n start ma career i will be meeting loads of people
n whoosh!!!
an ocean of dudes will be there
so why hurry rite?
neways i guess when i see tat person in d future,like in another 7 to 10 years,i will know he's the one.

hw will ma future be?

today morning when i was in the shower having a relaxin time with the hot bath though the weather wasnt cold,suddenly a thought striked my mind.i started thinking bout my future.'hw will i be wen i m out of high school','wat will i do',where will i go','will i do well in ma spm' n yada yadaaa.....
actually speaking frankly,i actually feel insecure bout ma future.till today i actually don't know wat i want 2 do.in wat field should i persue ma higher education.the worst part is i don't even have a rough idea of wat i like.yea i do luv bio,d anatomy,life cycle n etc etc. me feeling so lost....
a lost soul..
but will i enjoy wat i think i will enjoy.thats the main problem that gives me nightmares.
i know that its too much 2 think bout this cz i havent even sat for ma SPM.but time its seems long but 'poof'! its gone.i m jz so worried.garhhh!!!


Lost....

i see a girl,
she looks familliar,
I look at her,
she stares back at me,
i look into her eyes,
i look deep into them,
her eyes seems to speak to me,
i see the hurricane in her mind,
i see what she sees,
i feel what she feels,
she feels insecure,
she's curious,
she's afraid,
she's not prepared,
she tries hard,
but....
she cant seem to get rid of it,
the hurricane is becoming worst,
she cries,
she screams for help,
she's drowning in the storm,
she knew how to swim,
but she cant swim,
she's falls apart,
she drowns,
she tries to breathe,
she cant breathe,
she sinks,
she stops breathing,
her compelling eyes shut close,
sudenlly she awakens,
she's somewhere,
but where?
its dark,
theres no sight of light,
she tries to find a way out,
but she's just lost...
she feels weak,
she wonders about her future,
will she have one,
what will it be,
i look at the mirror,
standing there,
i realised,
i am lost.

Today is a day that i will neva 4get.i got up as usual 4 school.i was already in ma car.suddenly i felt like throwing up n ma stomach ached.i told ma mum.she sighed n turned back.since it was 7 already ma mum said neva mind no need 2 go 2 skewl.so i stayed at home.i called veno in d evening she told me tat we had 2 do our moral folio n hand it in tmrw.i was like, aiyuh!!!!.
dad took us out 4 dinner at oliverz cafe.food was good.

Rite nw i m sortta emoing.i suppose becoz sm1 i really love and care is going 2 endure a pain that is excruciating,and also going thru a tough time. This is for that darlingest person in ma life....

when she broke the news to me,
i was shattered but she was more shattered,
she was torn apart,
so was i,
when i saw tears rolling down her cheeks,
my heart was crying out of pain,
it was my 1st,
i had never seen tears in her eyes,
she was always strong,
it was my 1st,
to see her so ripped apart,
she was no longer the same person,
she dwelled herself in sadness,
she cried while being entertained,
she cried when she ate,
she cried in her sleeps,
she cried in her dreams,
she cried in her heart,
the core of her heart seemed so powerless,
i became weaker with every tear she shed,
but i knew i had to be strong,
nt jz for me bt for her,
i wonder why was god being so cruel 2 her,
but then he does everything for a reason,
if he gives her pain i m sure he will give her strength,
with the flow of time she is gaining her spirit,
i hope she knows that we are with her in this war,
my dear, my perspective on u will never change,
u will always b the same uber cool,loving and strong person
i pray that she will be fine,
i pray that she will pass in this test,
i know that she will,
after all she is a strong rose,
that never losses its smell and beauty,
I LOVE U
MY DEAREST JEWEL,
.

Yesterday was awesome.it wz diwali eve.me n ma family went over 2 ma uncles hse like 2 rows away.diana n her family aso cm along.it wz sorrta fun.ma aunt she cooked a lovely meal.there wz prawn,fish,chicken n mutton n ma favourite d mix vegetables.i suppose becoz it was filled with mushroom.
Diana n her family cm later.after they had their dinner we went out n started 2 fire d rockets n firecrackers.it wz fun.shalu,bro,me,diana n azrul were outside d house blasting d rockets.there wz dis firecracker known as d 'bee' ma bro fired it n it flew rite into one of d neighbours hse.n d dog wz trying 2 get out of d cage.poor doggy we scared its fur out!!
me n diana we were imagining hw wud it be 2 blast n play firecrackers in front of manoz hse.he n they way he tralks.we sorrta memimik his voice n dialogue.it wz funny.
i woke up bout 8am today it was a really late nite yesterday.i slept at bout 230am.so yea there is slight dark rings around ma eyes...sighs..
neway i had tosai wif chicken curry n also cereal.due 2 d heavy breakfast i skipped ma lunch.a few of ma broz college mates r down rite nw.mum n dad r sleepin.i think i m goin 2 watch sm tv.so bye ma fellow readers.

Rite nw i m reli crazy over crsytal bracelets.i had 7 n 1 broke.IT was reli very very sad.it wz rainbow coloured.SO NW Bak 2 d present.i went 2 parade last thursday.n i usually go 2 above in bum city 2 get ma bracelet.1 bracelet isRM12.90.bt tat day they were clearing up d stock n there wz 70% off n it was only rm3.87.i grabbed 4 of em all different n sparkling.haaa.i fell in love with them.still in love actually.u wud luv it if u were a girl.so classy n pretty at d same time.
I plan 2 get a few more today tat is if i go 2 parade.
CRSYTAL!!!

Yesterday wz nt too bad.it wz actually kinda fun,nervous n a little tensed.well yesterday i had to attend an award ceremony held by maybank bcoz i scored straight A's in ma PMR examination last year.it wz specially 4 d maybankers children.It was held at Casuarina hotel.it started bout 3.45pm.they were calling d names of d kids n d parents followed them.then after 15 mins d mc called ma name i wz actually kinda shakey n nervous.ma mum followed me n ma dad joined me frm d front.wen i gt tat award i felt so.. so happy so glad bcoz i made ma parents proud n there wz flashes of light at least 3 to 4 cameraz. i felt like sm star(i m nt bragging or wat kay every1 gt tat 2)
after d PMR students wz d SPM students ma bro gt an award too cz he did good in d xamz.n since both of ma dad's kids gt an award he gt d title super dad or double parent.i wz so so so so happy cz ma dad gt tis tittle b4 he retired frm maybank.i alwayz dreamed bout tat tittle.it wz a very gud feeling 2 make ma parents happy.u hav too feel it to understand tat momment.
i gt a cert n a check i already planned on wat to do with tat money bt ma dad has other plans.

the meltdown of ma heart...

this is d painting of ishaan done by nikumbh


well yesterday was d second day of raya.so as usual they will put some good shows.my day yesterday wz nt so bad it wz alrite.had a reli late sleep d day b4.ma uncle n dadz fren cm so yea as usual it wz a late nite.bt hey i had fun wif ma cuzin sis shalu.disturbin her n lol with ma aunts story.damn tat wz reli funny.it wz diz 5 year old tat told my aunt her recipe n its made frm chili powder bread crumbs n name for dat freakishly weird yet funny receipe wz city delight.i wz jz thinking 2 ma self tat whoever whu ate d 'city delight' will b havin a delightful time at d john.hahaha.
so nw bak 2 yesterday. as i am a vegeterian 4 d nine god festivals ma mum did vegetarian food n ghosh it wz so good.i wz like' omg ama its so good' n i wz hogging like a bloody pig.
later at nigt i did sm sejarah n i wz so sick n dead of it.i felt so empty.n i hav no idea why.so i stood in front of d tv n staring balnkly at d shiny screen.then i turned d tv on. it wz zee tv channel 108.
there wz this movie directed n starred by amir khan.Taree Zameen Par.it wz one hell of a touching story.it wz one of d movies tat i actually teared.it wz about this boy,Ishaan who has difficulties in reading bt he is a gr8 artist.he tries reli hard.bt he jz cnt.he is also quite active n tat gets him to trouble.his dad is one heck of a stricto.his mum is reli loving.n his brother Yohan is reli very gud n understanding towards ishaan.
one day ishaan runs away frm d skewl bcoz he didnt get his m3 paper signed by his parents n didnt do his m3 work.he jz ran 2 d roads n wondered.at nite wen he wz sleepin he woke yohan n asked him 2 write him a absent letter.at first yohan scolded him out of concern.after tat he wrote it 4him. one fine day his dad found out bout tat letter.he wz so pissed. he decided to send him off 2 boarding schoo.ishaan wz so torn n broken.he didnt want 2 leave.
wen he went there he became even worst all d teachers maki him teruk teruk.idiot,stupid,dumb,n etc.he died inside.tat once upon active noisy kid has turned so quite n doesnt talk no response 2 anytin.
in dat whole skewl he only has one fren,Ram.tat boy has a problem with his legs n uses crutches n he is also d smartest kid there.
later one day a new art teacher cmz in d skewl.he realises tat he is so quite n wonders y.he asks d teachers bout ishaan they told d him tat he cnt write or even read.they complained n complained.oh yea b4 tat d teachers name is ram shankar nikumbh.he teaches n helps in a special skewl for all d unable children.
nikumbh realises tat ishaan has dyslexia. he goes n meets his parents n informs them.
his dad becomes so furious.
slowly nikumbh helps ishaan n he picks up slowly. n soon cn speak n write.
n then nikumbh helds a art competition n even d teachers take part.nikumbh drawz ishaan face.n wen ishaan gives his painting to nikumbh he walks towards nikumbhs painting n saw his image there.tat part wz jz so touching he started crying cz no one has ever dne tis 4 him.n ishaan wins d comp.tat part wz even mre extra touching.arghh u hav 2 watch tat movie 2 feel it.ghosh i enjoyed it.i dont mind watchin it again.watch it n feel it.

PoNteNg!!!

well today i cut skewl cz i didnt feel like goin 2 skewl. bt i kinda miss my buddies ta make my day.yea so anywayz i woke up today at 5.45a.m had my shower ate b'fast n started studyin at 6.30am.i did sejarah chap 7 it wz okay there were sm parts of f3 sejarah involved.so it wz easier.i stopped bout 10 am cz my tummy wuz all rumbly fumbly so i went down 2 grab a bite i took a muesli bar n my mum wz trying 2 fix d iron dat wz spoiled.all d wires n stuff nt my kind.so i kinda felt bad leavin her alone there so i sat wif her n finished my bar.then i ended up talking wif my mum till 1045.n then i knew tatz it no mre study study.so i ate my lunch, egg tart!! my fav.n nw i m here blogging n chatting wif my cousin sisters.plan 2 get bak on my books at 230 pm.hopefully i cn do it.

tensed,exhausting,too much n frustrating.

well yesterday wz a nice day everything started out fine,b'fast,the ride 2 skewl,at d sudut,n assembly.when i gt 2 class bel dropped d bombshell.
our xam tat wz supposed 2 b on d 16th has been fowarded to d 7th.i wz so arghh!! so pissed wif d skewl. first the great skewl of mine set d xamz on d 6th.then becoz of d tourism quiz n homestay programme d postponed d xamz on d 16th.n nw on d 7th.the skewl is jz so undecided.
They finalised d xam date on d 16th n nw on d 7th.grr....
i wz annoyed wif d schedule. frm d 7th to d 9th is bm,bi n sejarah.den we hav a break n d xam starts bak on d 16th.its so complicated.newayz i dun care edy.i m jz gonna focus on ma xamz n d results.
cz i wz jz so pissed so as usual i started lookin at d brighter side 4rm d changes done.n i figured out tat i actually will b able 2 enjoy my light festival. n help ma mum.during physics there were too many nyamuk.ahaiyhz.so we wnt bak 2 our class.i wz jz so sleepy as i slept at 2 am.so i jz dozed off.later we had chemi n we were made too wear googles.all of us looked so funny.krity said i looked like tweety bird n veno nut said i looke like a bird on a plane.lol.
me n krity were so nt in d mood 4 experiments so we didnt reli do muc pratically lili did everything she really wanted 2 do it.yea so she did it with a tinsy wincy hhelp frm me n krity.
krity told me tat she felt fat btw she is one hell of a slimo skino.it seemz she did shoppin yesterday 4 deepz.n she ate cheezy wedgez n twisters at KFC. then she ate choclate flavoured ice cream a bR.N DRANK A MC FLURRY.as i wz alredi hungry she made me mre hungry.durin break i n veno n bel we took all our stuffz down 2 d canteen n started hogging.i ate my granola bar n roller coaster.then break wz over. we wnt bak 2 class. n after bout 10 to 15 minz i realised tat we left ll our stuffz at d canteen.i ran all d way down veno wz making me laugh n wen i stopped running aww!! my tummy reli wz painful due 2 d running n d laughter.it wz kinda silly d who situation.haha.

Today i gt up at bout 8 am cz i heard sm noise downstairs.so i gt up n went 2 check out d noise
n it wz my dad gettin ready to go golfing.so i went back to sleep.mum woke me up at bout 830 after she woke up.i had my shower.ate my breakfast n off i flew upstairs to study.
i opened my sejarah book n started where i stopped yesterday.i gt so tired of it.it reli made me sleepy.it worked like a GA. so i switched 2 ad m3.did composite function.i liked dat chap of ad m3 so it wz a piece of cake.as i wz doin some sums.suddenly i was startled by screamings n yellings frm my neighbours hse.heryooo!!!
It wz so friggin annoying. d gilaz residens wz too much of noise 4 me.i cudnt take it.so i stopped add m3 n went downstairs.there my dearest bro wz listenin 2 music n studyin. i looked at him, n he gave me d 'wat d hell r u lookin at' look.newayz i m so imune 2 tat.so i went 2 d kitchen my mum wz preparin lunch.so i went up n switched 2 bio.later.den i went on9 checked my mails friendster,facebook n etc.den i went 4 lunch. nw i m sittin on my chair facing my comp n typing out d inccidents of my life.(tat sounds weird) newayz i hav 2 nappy nw so goodbye adious my fellow readers!!

well i had been reli busy yesterday n i had no time 2 blog what more eat.haizh..
newayz yesterday wz reli reli fun.durin sivics our teacher knew that we dun reli like sivics,so she approached us in a different bt common way.we were made 2 4 groups.there wz sha,nat,krity,veno,angy,molly n me n my group.each group were given a card consisiting of words bout pengguna,like bijaksana,cermat n etc etc.we were made 2 do sing a song wif dat words.sha wz our main singer ,me n veno we d specialist in special effects.d rest were professionals in suprano n backstage singers. we used d we will rock u tune.n begging for mercy by duffy.at d beggining we used d begining of so what lyrics n it went like...
na na nananaaa nanaaa anaaaa wohooo!! na na nananaaa anaaa wohooo!!
everyone wz all wohooo n lol during d wohooo part.wonder wat they were thinking=)
later wz lit n we were in d same group n we were interpretin d meaning of a few lines of a d poem,the way things are. n there wz this line"the thrill of being a shower curtain will soon pall"
rachels group suggested dat d kid want 2 b d shower curtain 4 d parents,n then she said tat maybe dat family wz too poor 4 shower curtains so d kid will b d s.curtain.n there wz this part when she said tat d kid showerz with d parents n later doesnt becoz he becomes shy,tat wz selz idea.tat gurl...lol
el wz short.then dad picked me.he wz on d phone all d way back home. i didnt feel like eatin so i ate a granola bar wif choclate milk n slept.then i woke up n studied.ate my dinner at 5pm.then studied sejarah.left 4 tution.cm bak bout 1010pm n studied sj n ad m3.slept at bout 12 30.
good nite books!!!!